Schwifty

Wandering

I come to bars alone. I come to listen. Listen to strangers open up to others about their successes and their failures. Their sins and their virtues. Their flaws and their perfections. Their narcissistic ways, or sometimes their empathetic ways. Little do they know, I listen. Little do they know, I know now. I don’t know their names, but I know them more than most. I probably know them more than the friend who’s not really listening. The friend that is judging and hoping they fail at fucking everything. The friend who secretly fucking hates them, but hangs around because misery fucking loves company.

I’ll probably never see or hear these souls spill again. Or maybe I will. Maybe we’ll cross paths and love eachother, or maybe we’ll cross paths and it’s a fight to the death. Maybe it’s an accidental shoulder bump in the midst of a busy commute downtown, maybe we take a shit in neighboring stalls on a drunk night and shake shitty hands for a job well done. Who knows.

I often offer advice in my head to these strangers, but stay silent. Nobody listens to my advice anyways and honestly, that’s fine with me. My advice is personal and indifferent from every individuals feelings. I would rather listen than speak anyway. I would rather sit here and wish well and reflect. Put myself in the shoes of a stranger and ponder. I often get lost in the hypotheticals of other people. I wander. Not all who wander are lost somebody once said. But I am. I’m lost, but I’m okay with that. Nobody knows me here. I’m just a stranger. A traveler of souls if you must.

Parallel me

I would love to switch places with myself in a parallel universe. Where I’m finally good enough. Where I have a voice. Where I have a place. Where I’m happy. Parallel me is lucky, for I am not. Fuck you, parallel me.

jabberwockyslayed:

I love you because
You are breathing
You have not given up
You wake up everyday
And walk along the earth
You have a set of eyes
That see the world differently than I
In a way I could never imagine
Your mind is full of different ideas
You have a story
You have views about life that can change mine
You have the ability to laugh
And to love
You are human
You are everywhere